Be as you wish to seem

we were laying on the mattress on the floor and

the room smelt like paint

I couldn’t even wrap my leg around you

I just laid there

I tried to ignore all the shit you were saying about how one day things would be different

I felt bad for myself

I felt bad for you

and now I’m glad things like this happened to me

because it made me

and we thought we loved each other then

and I knew that something like this had to happen for you just to love me this much

Have you ever had that experience in your life

And now  I  look back on it, I wish I hadn’t taken that moment for granted

 I really hope you forget

I sobbed

I cried that kinda of crying where I had to catch my breath

I couldn’t  breath through my nose

I don’t like the idea of sharing moments with people

excepting that my life is not going to be perfect and beautiful

expecting it to not be like theirs

What happened to seeing your friends just to see them

not worrying what they had to offer

maybe its time

its time I grew up

and noticed that friends

arent like they were

when we were kids

what would I know about friends though..